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“That’s not mine,” I said, the words feeling thin and useless in the heavy silence.
I looked down the hall toward my sister, Jocelyn. She was twenty, the golden child who spoke the dialect of submission perfectly. She offered a small, sad smile—the kind of look a victor gives the vanquished. “I tried to warn you, Dad,” she whispered. “She’s been hanging out with a rough crowd for months.”
I turned to my mother, Patricia, who was standing in the kitchen doorway wringing a dish towel. Her eyes darted to the floor. In the Bennett household, my mother’s love was a silent, powerless thing. She was a woman who lived in the shadow of my father’s temper, and that night, she chose the shadow over her daughter. “Just go, honey,” she whispered. “Let him cool down.”
I didn’t own a suitcase. I shoved my life into a black heavy-duty trash bag. As I passed Jocelyn, she didn’t step aside. She was holding a tape measure against my bedroom window. She wasn’t grieving my departure; she was already measuring for new curtains. Gerald slammed the door behind me, and the click of the deadbolt sounded like a gunshot in the frozen night.
I sat in the Honda. The engine sputtered to life, but the vents blew nothing but ice. I spent the first night in a Walmart lot, the stagnant cold of the car settling into my marrow. By the second night, I moved behind the public library. I hadn’t eaten in forty-eight hours, terrified to spend a single dollar. On the third night, the shivering stopped.
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