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For nine months, I lived with constant anxiety. Every check-up, every scan, every loving gesture from my husband felt like a reminder of my guilt. He was so excited. So proud. He would gently place his hand on my growing belly and smile in a way that made me feel even worse.
“You’re going to be an amazing mother,” he would say.
At night, while he slept peacefully next to me, I would lie awake, staring into the darkness, imagining everything falling apart. I rehearsed telling him the truth over and over in my mind—but the words never left my mouth.
I told myself I was sparing him the pain.
Then the day finally came.
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